Just a few more weeks!

I can't believe how fast this pregnancy has whizzed by at some sort of freakish lightning speed. There is so many things that I have not done yet that I feel almost frenzied but without the movement if that makes any sense at all! I wake up every morning with a ton of things that need to be accomplished aside from the basic meals, school drop offs and pick-ups, dishes laundry etc.. but I can't get my body to make it to these "baby things". When your mind is in a frenzy but you can't move it makes for a very interesting ticking time bomb like feeling in your mind. One moment everything is fine and the next my thoughts catch up to my body and I can feel my blood pressure rise along with my voice. Not good! My body is ready to get back to itself yet the things in our life have not made it to 36 weeks along with my body. If my body would stop growing and maybe go back a few (10) weeks or so then maybe I could muster up the energy to get the baby stuff set up, washed, sterilized etc... but since I sit here at 36ish weeks and can barely move without pain somewhere I seem to be stuck in a rather sticky predicament. So here I sit!

I know things will work out as they always do so I try to let go of most of the murmurings in my mind and concentrate on my sweet boys and life that is before me. In the next few weeks we will cross into another phase of our lives adding a new member to the family will be a major adjustment for all of us. I can't wait to see Jett's face when he gets to kiss his "own baby". He is very excited about the fact that this baby will be his to love on and no one will be able to say you can't hold them or kiss them which has been the rule with the babies he has been around recently. His affection towards those little people come straight from his heart and I think it was stifled a bit with what he could or couldn't do that now he is very jazzed about the fact that this baby will get all his unconditional love. (deep breath) I am sure that this baby will be loved and loved a lot!

We wrapped up snowboarding lessons last week and are smack dab in the middle of basketball season. Indy loves B-ball he might not be the best player but he gives it his all. I am so proud of how far he has come this year over last.
Jett starts soccer in the spring just as Indy is winding down from basketball the schedule will work out nicely so as to not bend momma into breaking with a new baby and all!

I am looking forward to summer and gardening, hiking and camping. So many things that I missed last summer and fall with my crazy morning sickness that this year I am aching to get outside and do something. I hope for a quick turn into spring a speedy delivery and a amazing new start to our new year and new decade!

I can't believe we have our first snow on the ground! It always makes me want to write and to reflect on our year. I guess it is that sense of hibernation that kicks in when the slowing down period begins to take hold with the shorter, colder days.

I also feel that sense of holiday that makes me want to bake....sounds cheesy I guess but it happens every year. I want to make cookies with the boys and do art projects etc..... It always makes me want to start a new hobby like crocheting or sewing which I have been trying to learn. I got a new machine last Christmas and bought some great books to kick it off and it just hasn't happened yet. Indy just asked the other day, "why does your sewing machine sit in the top of the closet? You never use it mom!" Ahhhhh to be so gently reminded of our failed attempts at creativity. But like all years this year I again have the urge with the changing of the season to get it down.

We spend many evenings after dinner watching the boys draw and create stories. I just love it. When it is too cold and too dark to enjoy time outside it is just the right time to delve into our creative insides and pull out something that we might not have known we had hiding in there. Maybe while they draw I should be listening to the humming of my machine(although humming sounds rather nice and when I sew it is not really humming). Maybe this winter I will conquer a craft........maybe!

MISC.

I am: listening to the soundtrack for "where the wild things are," took the boys last weekend and adored it!

I am: smelling the pumpkin seeds we roasted this morning after a night of carving pumpkins and reading about how that tradition started......after several long hours of carving we lit them up and knew that they were keeping the spirits away at least the evil ones.

I am: So excited after seeing our baby on the big ...o.k. little screen in the dr. office yesterday there was moments of breathlessness as i watched the baby as well as my family take in the moment. I am always very anxious as they measure, sigh and try to get those needed shots. After 45 min of video and q and a we were done and our baby m looks perfect and I feel perfect about that baby!

I am: Looking forward to Halloween tonight and I am thankful that I am not hosting the party. Although this is the one we plan for and love to host every year, this seems like a good year to have a hiatus from it with baby M and all wearing me out at every turn!

I am: anxiously awaiting the end of my time at work......I think it is coming within the next month. Many changes are happening at the office and my office at home has been neglected as I tried to balance that hard to balance work and family. Jett loves preschool and Indy is at school the entire time I am at work so he feels nothing of me working outside of the home. It's the inside of our business and the inside of my home that has me reeling from walking the tightrope! I just can't keep up with the boys, the home, the job outside, and the business, throw a pregnancy in there and as the belly grows I am sure I am about to wipe out and so I have decided to jump and land on my feet..........hopefully!